Back in July I told you a story about my struggles with obesity and a friend dying because of his obesity. I decided that day I needed to start working on my health for fear that I would end up dead from a heart attack or stroke. I wrote the story on July 10 2017, posted it and then weighed in. I weighed 345 pounds. The next day I joined Planet Fitness.
Being totally honest with you, it was a struggle to go in there and start exercising. I see how I look in the mirror butt naked and I am super self-conscious in my skin…..I am uncomfortable with how I look. BUT I am more uncomfortable with dying. Ya feel me?!?!? About that time I get a text from a friend encouraging me to exercise. OK, I have to do this.
I drive up to PF and walk in. I went to my familiar place, the stepper based on the fact that was how I lost the weight the first time except the Planet Fitness stepper is WORSE than the one I have. I go on that thing and after 2 minutes I was huffing and puffing like I ran a mile. My heart was racing and I thought I was going to pass out. I could not stay on that thing so I got off and looked around. I need something to start slowly as I am out of shape and I have no stamina. I see the bikes and think, “Ok I can do that, low impact, easy on the knees. Yeah, let’s go.” I ride the bike for a ½ hour and I am running out of energy. That’s enough for today. I go back the next day and the next doing a ½ hour each time. My friend keeps texting me daily, “Keep doing it” so I do.
One day I get this idea that I should take my stair master to my office. Syd wants to be at school by 6:30 in the morning which leaves me with an hour or so to kill before I go to my office. I rationalize that I can get a ½ hour to 45 minutes in prior to the start of my day. I bring it in and start exercising in the morning and then going to the gym in the evening. Before long I am doing 2 to 2 ½ hours of exercise a day. I add Saturdays and Sundays but quickly remember I am not 28 years old. I am 48 years old. I need to slow down and allow my body a day to recover so I cut back to 6 days a week.
I weigh in each day and check my progress. I am doing an AWESOME job!!! Four months go by and in November I am 289. I have dropped 56 pounds. I am under 200 pounds for the first time in years. I am beyond excited. Now here comes the hard part….HOLIDAYS!!!!! How do I manage the holidays and my weight? Real talk I am a foodie and a cook. I already know there will be turkeys, hams, mac, stuffing’s and lots of cakes. I decide that I am going to stay focused and do the best I can to maintain my weight. I know I am going to eat so I focus on my exercise. I eat, lose weight, eat, lose weight, eat, lose weight. This goes on all of November and December. I weigh in on January 1st and I am back up to 296. I am not pleased with this.
I hit the gym and double down knowing that I have my complete physical coming up in a couple of weeks. I bust my ass and on Sunday before my physical I weigh in again. I am down to 291. Ok, not bad. It’s not where I want to be which was 289 but it’s better than 345. I go see doc and am ready for the long spiel about obesity, eating etc. What I get is, “You’ve lost a lot of weight. GOOD JOB. What made you do it?” I explain about Tony and his death. I don’t want to die. He is impressed with my BP numbers, EKG numbers, and cholesterol numbers. He encourages me to continue my quest. I leave there feeling like I wasn’t beat up for being fat….first time in years I felt that way.
Real talk, it’s not easy. I eat healthy more now than I did six months ago BUT I still eat and have to fight that urge to binge. My biggest weakness is Kit Kats. It used to be soda but I have managed to kick that habit. I no longer want soda as much as I used to. Once you detox from the sugars and processed foods you want them less BUT sometimes your body betrays you and much like Pavlov’s dog you salivate when you see a certain food item AND YOU JUST HAVE TO HAVE IT.
It’s been a struggle but I am not done. I have a goal of getting back to 265 which is the weight I was when I met Andrea. After I hit that number I am going to keep going and honestly I hope to be at least in the 220 range by summer. I know that is a lofty goal but if I can drop 56 pounds in four months I know I can drop another 50-60 by summer.